take a b r e a t h

January 15, 2018

I am sitting at the kitchen table where I work each day. As I hold a cup of hot coffee, in my favorite mug, I lean back in my chair pulling my legs to my chest to just take a breath for a moment. I look out the window next to me and enjoy the wonder of watching the snow swirl like a snow globe shaken up from its rest. Unplanned moments like these are needed because they give me a reset; they remind me what is important, rather, Who is important. These moments are a gentle reminder that God is good, even when my feelings aren’t always keen on believing that. In these times it’s like the world stands still and it opens my eyes to see just how beautiful the world around me is and reminds me that everything is going to be okay, everything IS okay. They remind me that this life isn’t about me at all – it’s a reset to my perspective on life, something that needs to be checked and renewed daily.

Our lives are a roller coaster of emotions – I’ve been more aware of my roller coaster in the last year and a half, especially in the last few months. In this moment right now it’s not lost on me how creative, beautiful and loving our Father is. Just as one example, He’s created seasons for us – so we don’t get bored, so we see His beauty and imagination, so we don’t get stuck in our norm but get out, get challenged, and enjoy each moment in the ever changing world we temporarily call ‘home’.

This morning God chose to give me a gift – something to be embraced only with a humble ‘thank you’, regardless of whether it is deserved or not. This moment was an example of Him pouring out his |unconditional| love resulting in peace and hope, expectancy and trust. I cannot see the whole story I’m woven into with my moment of life – therefore I am most often left feeling at a loss of understanding as to why things are the way they are. Through this I am thankful that He is like a good Father and gives us what we need and not what we want, and definitely not what we deserve.

live with abandon.